Left : Leather Jacket – Saint Laurent
撰文/CHINESE : JIN TAO
攝影/PHOTOS : Nick D for precursorprints.com
SPITGAN : 姓名/年龄/所在城市/国籍
Sudhee Liao / 25 / 香港 / 新加坡。
SPITGAN : Name/Age/Current City/Nationality
Sudhee Liao / 25 / Hong Kong / Singapore
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SG : 你是做什么的？
我做许多工作扮演各种角色。我我是一个舞蹈工作室的私人教练，也是一名舞者，我经常会和一些编舞家合作一些曲目。有时候我自己也编舞，但我还称不上是一个编舞家，因为对我来说这种好奇心驱使下的创造是一种治愈。我喜欢看见不同的人来跳这些动作所展现的不同气质与魅力。这是一个持续不断的过程，保持灵感的新鲜，保持分享的强烈的愿望。我很开心能够做自己喜欢的事。
SG : 这是否是你梦想中的生活？
梦想需要追逐，而我觉得我还在追逐的途中。这是一种无法阻挡执着。对我来说也是一种好奇心的开发，这本身就是一个无限循环。我觉得舞蹈已经是我生活的一部分了，总是在寻找活着，存在的感觉。每当我演出时，我就完全沉浸在这种饱满的状态。这种紧张的感觉对我而言是最好的礼物，令我感受到强劲的生命力。这与世界上任何东西都不一样。是一种活在当下迎接挑战的感受，这种感觉让我热血沸腾，连眼睛都是闪闪发光的，那一刻你会忘记时间，忘记一切，全力迎击。对我来说，我们是诠释自己梦想的主人，梦想的理念就是使之成为现实。
SG : 你为了梦想做出的最大的牺牲是什么？
有许多我不得不做的牺牲和改变人生的决定，其中一个是要离开我新加坡的家人和朋友。已经快6年了，有时候我仍会思想情结泛滥。但我很幸运，我有全力支持和鼓励我的家人，我还能要求什么呢。
SG : 你到目前为止人生的至高点是？
我想说作为一个新晋的青年艺术家，此时我还无法拥有太多至高点，但我正在向着目标努力。到目前为止，我已经非常幸运了。去年年底，我和我的搭档Ivan Chan受到了香港艺术发展局的资助为我们委派了今年年初的工作。这是我的第一个完整的作品，我非常荣幸能有这样的机会。我很感激同时也推动我更积极，更努力地工作，这笔款项对我来说是莫大的荣誉。
SG : 你会怎样帮助家乡变得更好?
我来自一个制度多，担忧多的国家。这并不一定是坏事，但我认为这种急功近利的气氛不利于创造出激情的艺术家。大家害怕失败，害怕过于淫秽，害怕打破传统界限。我认为艺术家需要在一定程度上做出自我突破，这点很重要。也许我自小在这种教育体系下成长，总是要呆在安全区内，而不能够破坏天枰的平衡。我觉得不确定性有时能有助于推动这些界限，创造出更好的作品。
SG : 你希望和谁合作呢？
现在还没有特别固定的人选，但我始终相信相遇，生命轨迹的交叉是一种缘分。所以我将这个交给命运来决定吧。
SG : 最喜爱的中国英雄？
李小龙。他的人生哲学是“像水一样”有弹性，同时也让我不断提醒自己，不要墨守成规。这反映了他无论是武术或是生活中的精准，理解和活力- 具有自我意识，从错误中学习，并最终自我升华。他对于他的艺术形式的献身精神和奉献精神极大地鼓舞了我。他向我们展现了何为仁慈。
SG : 你佩服的中国现代榜样。
应该是李存信，他现在是昆士兰芭蕾舞团的艺术总监。他的人生故事，被写成了一本书，还被拍成了电影 – 毛泽东的最后一个舞者。他出生在毛泽东共产主义中国的贫困家庭中。我十分钦佩他的勇气与激情，能够从当时中国的镇压中逃离，去追求自己的梦想和自由。他于1981年叛逃，为此作出了巨大牺牲，但凭着毅力，努力和决心，他赢得了自由与成功的职业生涯。
Sweater – Saint Laurent, Shorts – Sudhee’s own
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SG : What do you do?
I do a lot of different things and play many roles. I teach dance at a private studio, and as a dancer, I work with different choreographers on projects from time to time. I choreograph as well, but I wouldn’t call myself a choreographer because I find it really therapeutic to step out, create, and let my curiosity take me from there. I like to see how different movements would work on different bodies and what comes out from it. It is a constant process, to stay inspired and keeping that burning desire to share. I am happy to be doing what I love.
SG : Are you living your dream?
Dreams are meant to be pursued, and I think I am still en route to pursuing it. It is an obsession that makes you unstoppable. For me, it is about developing curiosity and that itself is an endless cycle. I feel dance has already been part of my life, always in search of being alive, being present. Whenever I perform, I go into this state of mindfulness. However, I always experience this nervousness as a satisfying gift. It is electrifying and alive. You can’t compare it to anything else in this world. It is the moment in my life when I feel most present and most challenged. The feeling of excitement, that makes your eyes sparkle, that makes you drive all your energy towards it, and makes you lose sense of time and everything else. To me, we are the masters of manifesting our own dreams, that’s eventually the idea of a dream, to make it happen.
SG : What is the greatest sacrifice you have made to live your dream?
There are many sacrifices and life changing decisions I had to make, but one of it is to be away from my family and friends back home in Singapore. It has been almost 6 years now, and sometimes I still do feel home sick. But I am very fortunate that my family is fully supportive and encouraging with what I am doing. That is all I could ever have asked for.
SG : What has been a high point so far?
I would say an emerging young artist, I do not expect to have many high points at this moment, but I am working towards goals. So far, I have been extremely fortunate. My partner Ivan Chan and I received funding from the Hong Kong Arts and Development Council late last year to commission our work early this year. It was my first full-length work and I think that this opportunity was a blessing for me. I was very grateful and motivated by it, pushing me to work harder, and I felt honored to be offered this grant.
SG : One change you would make to your hometown for the better.
From where I come from, there are a lot of fears and regulations in the country. It is not necessarily a bad thing, but I think it could be too utilitarian a society to create passionate artists. I feel the fear of failure, fear of being too risqué, fear of breaking boundaries. I think it is important for artists to disagree and expand the borders. Maybe it is the education system that I was brought up in, always to be on the safe side, not to tilt the balancing scale. I realized that uncertainty would sometimes help push these boundaries, to create better work.
SG : Who would you like to work with right now?
They is no particular someone right now, but I always believe whoever we meet has to do a lot with fate, how our different path cross. I’ll just leave it to fate and chance.
SG : Favorite Chinese hero?
Bruce Lee. His philosophy on resilience “Be like water”, is a constant reminder for me whenever I feel stuck in a rut. It reflects his precision, understanding, and vigor both in martial arts and in life – the moment of having self-awareness, to learn from mistakes and to ultimately change minds and ourselves. His devotion and dedication to his art form has inspired me greatly. He demonstrated what it means to be a truly compassionate human being.
SG : A modern Chinese role model you admire.
I would say Li Cunxin, who is now the Artistic Director of Queensland Ballet. His life story is now written in a book and has been made into a movie – Mao’s last dancer. He was born into poverty in Mao’s communist China. I admire him for his courage and passion. to be able to escape from the suppression of China back then, and to be able to pursue his dreams and freedom. His defection in 1981, caused him to make great sacrifices, but with perseverance, hard work and determination, he earned himself the right of freedom and a successful career.
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